Hey!! What Happen To Me ? :(

The midnight ____ (14/8/2010)

Dunno why ... Tat fellow ! stupid fellow !

See "Kim" ... also wan copy put "Kim" !!

Deeiii!! dunno why i so angry.. nvm..its ok...

i sabar...

i tabah...

But...suddenly open my another ID...

saw sumtin...

After tat my heart told me : Hey!! Now u r so sad n feel hurt..

I ask : Bout wat i'm sad ?

My heart say : Maybe you should go check urself...

i think... is about them again...

But... I tell myself!!

I wan tabah!! n sabar for myself..

for my future.. for my happy future... :)

Let it smile... :)

Chill....

But... How ?

I can't do it...

i can't ...

i really can't...

even a word "sabar" ,

even a word "tabah" ,

i just can say it... how to make it in my real life ?

How... T^T...!!

So .... I'm trying changing myself...

"Lim jean jin !!!" My heart shout it ...

"?" my respond...

"U wan like this again !? Did you ! Hey!! c'mon!! chill !! n tabah...

do back urself !! even they are not support you ! but the angle in ur heart ,

is always in ur heart... beside you.. so... dun let me dissapoint...I noe u can do it.."

Some time...

I feel like... Why i like to cry ?

Just Only "CRY" can do wat things ?

Nothing right ?!

But... look at me. !!

Thinking me in real life !!

U think i'm a tabah girl ?

Oh gosh.. avtually i'm not...

i'm not... i;m just a devil in my smal heart...

Love to cry... unrespect other ppl...

unrespect myself...

Trying to help ppl but in the wrong way...

Wrong Wrong Wrong!!

Haiz... so... if sumbody can help me... can tell me ?

What should I do ?

I almost lost my journey in my life...

a feel like i'm going to die...

No any feel...

OH ! Friends ??!!

No one.... Less fren or more fren for me ?

Not so important..

but for others... tat is very very very important...

But my thinking is not same with u all...

Frens !!?? Sometime i so hate you!!

Y i'm trying to help you...

but... u try to hurt me ?

OK.... hurt me ? its ok ...cum on!! Go hell!!

U remember wat i told you ?!

i said : u layak to choose ur fren...What type of fren i also wont halang you..

cuz u got ur choice...

N rememver u told me wat ??!!

U told me : i dun like to hate ppl... n i wont hate ppl again... i feel seksa ..

Then ? Why did you hate me ? hate my fren ?

OK...me is nevermind...

i'm just wan my fren happy...

so !! can u all stop disturb my fren!?

just pukul me if u wan!!!

Just scold me if you want!!

BUT ! pls scold me in front of me!!

If u beh song me...

i will accept wat u r saying...

tat's my choice..

some sentences tat u will very vry vry hurt me ..!

So ? I don care... i just want to noe why r u hate me ?!

So ... Now we r not fren anymore..

maybe il be fren again.. but u will say : wan me he hao with her!??? Pui!!!

U wan how to say i don care i don mind...

maybe we will me enemy...

Its ok...u wan how... how larr... :)

So ....heart angel tell me...

"So, now u nid to tabah.. ^^ if not ...they will pandang rendah terhadap kamu! Berusaha

I will support u anytime.. :D "

Oh ya! n remember...even ajk or x-pelapis beh song me,

pls pls pls n must!! tell me yarhx.. ^^ i wont angry.. :)

cuz tat is my "ge xing"....

CHILL KIM JOHN!! :) LOVE MYSELF... DA LANG~~~

and last ... hope i can DO IT!!!!!!!!! :d